Words cannot explain how good it feels to regain your energy back after chemo. It’s so depressing laying around in bed for days not able to really get into anything…Not even reading or watching shows and it’s not like you can just sleep the day away either. There are constant alarms going off reminding me to take my pills throughout the day. Every other Tuesday-Saturday is definitely a drag for me! But enough with the complaining, I’m almost done!
I’ve completed 10 rounds (5 cycles) of chemo and I’ve got 2 rounds (1 cycle) to go! I’m starting to feel so overwhelmed! I’m excited to be done with feeling like this and getting back into the normal routine of life, this time with so much more strength than I had before. I’m also nervous for things to go wrong. Even though everything so far has been going really well - it’s impossible for anybody to not worry about the what ifs in this situation. I keep thinking “cure” in my mind and reminding myself that I am getting better and that staying in remission and being deemed cured is usually what happens with HL patients…95% of them!
As anxious as I am to start working again and going to the gym and just doing regular things - I sometimes wonder if there are some parts of this that I will miss - like having all the time in the world to read and relax. Or having it be acceptable to be totally infatuated with a fictional show because your own life is pretty dull at the moment. There will be tons of adjustments that I will need to make once this is all over and I’m sooo ready to make them :)